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Hallie – I wanted to do the test but I was afraid

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Six years ago I had a risky encounter with someone. I was too afraid to get tested after that. I lived with the guilt for years. I always felt like I was suffering from HIV and each time I would feel sick I would think, it’s HIV. I couldn’t sleep at night, I had anxiety and depression. I wanted to do the test but I was afraid of what it would mean and what life would be like after that.

One day I decided that I couldn’t live like this anymore and I went and did a rapid test. Sitting there waiting to get my test results was the longest 20 minutes of my life. When the doctor told me that I was HIV-negative, my heart stopped and I couldn’t believe that all the worrying was over. My advice to everyone is to get tested and don’t let your fears control you. I let mine control me for six years.

It’s normal to feel anxious before testing, but it can help you put your mind at ease and take control of your health. If you’re negative, you can find out more about how to stay that way, while if you’re positive you can get the treatment and support you need to stay healthy. Find out more about testing for HIV.

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Last updated: 28 June 2021