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April 1

Hey, I'm 14 years old and I have feelings for such an amazing girl.

I'm year 9/going into year10 and I have liked this girl since year 7....for 3 years.

All my friends know and so does the girl I like, but she doesn't like me back. She isn't lesbian/bisexual. I'm finding it very hard to deal with.

I keep telling myself I'll be okay, but then it hits me. I'm a lesbian.

I kind of had doubts about my sexuality in primary (silly as it sounds) but I found girls atractive. However I never thought anything of it because I was young and I thought maybe every girl at my age goes through it. I fully understood what a lesbian was due to my nieghboors who were a lesbian couple. I have never been against lesbians in my life because I've always known it's normal. But I can't seem to deal with it myself. It's really killing me.

I guess now that the girl who I like knows I like her has gotten closer to me as like a friend. We're not bestfriends but I want to get closer to her. Not like going out but I honestly really care for her. I'd do anything for her.

I have trouble with nerves and I get nervous doing alot of things. I have trouble eating infront of my bestfriend because of my nerves but she said do it for the girl you like. I ate. That's one of the hardest things for me in life to eat in front of people. But I did it for her and also my best friend.

I don't have anybody to talk to who's in my situation. I have my bestfriend yes but she doesn't know what I'm feeling. She try to understand but she could never say I know how you feel. None of the people who I know can say that. I just need someone in my situation where the feel that their feelings are so strong for a girl they would do anything. I need someone to talk too who's in my shoes.

AVERT says: on our website we have a list of resources for those who are lesbian, gay, bisexual or unsure.