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My name is Andrew, im 17 and i'm gay.
I first started to realise I was attracted to men when I was in year 9 at secondary school. For about 2 years I kept telling myself that it was just a phase and I tried to make myself attracted to girls which didn't work.
In my final year at school I was 100% positive that I was gay. It killed me every day knowing that I couldn't tell people or be myself. It was so horrible having to pretend to be attracted to girls when in reality I was finding men attractive. I knew I would never be able to change my sexuality.
I was so scared every day. I didn't know what to do. I thought I would be unhappy for the rest of my life and that my life was over. After school, I started college and a few months before I was due to finish my first year I told a very good friend of mine. She told me not to worry and that people would be shocked but eventually they would accept it. She said I should tell my parents but the thought of telling them terrified me. After that I told about 4 or 5 close friends.
Just before I finished my first year at college, I went to a party. I got very drunk at the party and when I got home I wasn't thinking straight. I told everyone I was gay over the internet. The next day was like hell, my parents found out and were furious.
However, I sat down with them and calmly talked to them about it. All of my friends accepted it and I had no trouble from any of them. My parents were very shocked at first but they told me they still loved me because being their son is all that matters. My parents arent mad anymore.
I've been out for a few months now and I had my very first boyfriend. It ended after a few weeks- but on good terms. My life has completly changed for the better now that people know. Now I am truly happy in life and i'm so excited because my life is finally moving forward.
I would advise everyone who is gay, lesbian, bi etc to come out because once you do, you will feel so much happier in life.
Good luck and have a happy life <3