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I found out I have the HIV virus after visiting my doctor with a rash that kept coming back. About 3 years ago I had been diagnosed with shingles and I thought that it was rather odd because I was 43 at the time and thought that only the elderly got it. At the same time I was going through a divorce and also requested a HIV test as I felt like I was starting a new chapter in my life. Well the doctor called me and said that she needed me to come back in for my results. I was totally blown away when I heard the words " you are HIV positive". I then had to pull myself together and decide how I was going to tell my now man friend. It took me about a week to give him the news. We went back to the clinic and he tested yesterday and I am praying that he doesn't have it. I am now waiting on my next appointment with a case manager to see where I am with everything and where do I go from here. I have one daughter that is 27 and a grandson 4 years old. I have told my daughter and she is very supportive because she is currently in college getting her degree for health care management and said that medicines are a lot better than it use to be and not to worry so much, just take it one day at a time... Wow, this coming from my child. She is my strength and my rock. My relationship is up and down. My man feelings are all over the place because he's waiting on results and isn't sure if he has it or how I received it. All I can do is pray that God allow me to see my grandson become a man and my daughter for 50 more years...I want to tell my mom sooo bad but I know she will tell the rest of the family and I don't know if I am ready for the world to know.....