Arrietta

My name is Arrietta and I had sex for the first time when I was 14 years old. I met this guy, Nathan, at school and he invited me to the dance and I said yes. After the dance, we went to his house. His parents were out and so he went up to me and said, honey, don't you think clothes are annoying? I do. He took off his clothed until he was completley naked. I was too shocked to notice he was taking off mine. He hugged me and for some reason it felt good.

He moved us into his bed under the blanket and took his penis and rubbed it on my vagina and it felt better. Then, he put it in my vagina before I realized what was happening. He started rubbing and It felt even better. 20 minuted later he finished and I went home. The next day I remembered and started crying. Then, I found out I was pregnant. I remember telling my mom. The worst part was giving birth. It hurt, but I was doing fine until I saw a head sticking out of the place between my legs. Then I fainted.

Now I am 20. My baby, Katie, lives with a family and will live with me as soon I finish school. I just got married 2 months ago to Nathan who is in law school. Katie will be 5 years old when she moves in with me and Nathan. I don't regret having sex, but I wish I'd been older.

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Missy

Hey, Im Missy. My first time was when i was 14. Im currently 16 years old. I met this guy online and I had been talking to him for about 2 months. During that period of time he asked me to be his girl friend and I said yes. He lived about an hour 1/2 away from me and we agreed he was to come over when my mom left for work on a Friday and stay over.

 That morning I left for the bus stop,waited at a park nearby,came all the way around back to my house and my mom was still home to my suprise! I went home, finally and my mom wasnt mad to see me, in fact she looked like she'd been crying. My cat died. To my supprised I laughed then two seconds later became histarical.

My mom didnt go into work that day. Later on I found no choice but to tell her that my "friend" was coming over and after a bit of arguing I convinced her to pick him up nearby somewhere. He came back to my house where we sat on a neighbors bench. We laughed and talked, thats when it happened, our first kiss. It was so soft and perfect. Later on we went into my house and hung out in my brothers room where we kissed some more and he slowly unzipped my jeans, sliding his fingers into me and kissing my neck (this was the first time I had been touched since I was raped-I dont count it as my 1st time btw.) As we were starting to get more into it my mom kept interrupting, yelling my name and asking if I was alright. Later, it was starting to get dark and my mom was taking a nap. She said he had to leave soon and I had told her that he had left already. SO MANY LIES I told her that day about how exactly I knew my "friend". I went back into my room where my boyfriend was laying on my bed sleeping. My mom called to me and said she was stepping out to go next door. Finally, some privacy. Me and my boyfriend starting kissing after a short nap. We again started to get really into it. He undid my jeans, sliding his fingers inside me deep,which began to hurt. He slid off my jeans and panties but I resisted when he tried to take off my shirt, I didnt feel comfortable getting COMPLETELY naked. He slid on the condom and got ontop of me, to my suprise I didnt feel much of anything. He was completely inside me now but kept pushing up against me....as if he could go any further into me. I tried to get ontop of him but he kept slipping out of me for some reason. He came,but I didnt. We didnt cuddle from what I can remember. We got some food then went to bed.

Later that night,we woke up and did it again, but it didnt get any better. The same useless pushing. I went down on him instead and nearly died. He pushed my head down further and further till I was tearing. He went down on me but it was like he was barely touching me. That morning I walked him down the road where he walked to the bus station. As we walked further apart we kept looking back at eachother,the space between us got bigger and as I rounded the corner i burst out in tears because I knew nothing would be the same after that and I was right. After we had sex he stopped calling me and talking to me all together. 

In a way it was a dissappointment, I wish it had been all around better and had been with someone who REALLY cared for me. But as for me, Im glad I just got it over with, there's no wondering what sex feels like. Now i can wait to have sex with someone special. I havent had sex since that time.

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Nikki

Hello. My name is Nikki. I am 17 years old and was 16 when I lost my virginity. It was about 4 months ago (December 2007) with my boyfriend. I am not going to say his name for his protection. Well here's our story...

I met him in May of 2007 at our friend's graduation party. I didn't realize this then but he would be my first love and somebody I will always love. :) Well I didn't know his name at first but he was so sweet, and kind. He told me how to find him, on Myspace. I sent a friend request to our friend's page but I didn't get it approved for a long while. About 2 days after we met I find that he sends me a friend request and a message. :)

All summer we talked and became better, and closer friends. He was definatly my best friend because he's the one person I can talk to. Eventually we were able to see each other after over 6 weeks of not. Mom and I picked him up from his house and brought him over to mine. In the back of the car we held hands, and when my mom wasn't in the room we shared our first kiss. :)

I saw him pretty much everyday after that. And every evening (for awhile) we'd go outside and make-out in his car. (heehee) A little less than 4 months of dating was when it happened. We had grinded and kissed, and we've given each other oral before. He had spent the night many times. Every time we'd either sleep on the couch together or on the floor. My mom brought up a mattress from the basement for us to sleep on that night. So we put the mattress behind the couch and slept on it. My mom was sleeping in her chair.

Since I was so tired I went to bed earlier than him. He was playing video games. It was about 3am when I woke up to him nibbling on my ear and crawling into bed. So of course I kissed him back and soon we were making out. He was in his boxers n I was wearing shorts and a tanktop. But soon after we started making-out he took off my shirt and continued kissing and necking me. Eventually my shorts were off and we were grinding a lot. He then took off my panties and he took off his boxers. Because we didn't want to take a chance of me getting pregnant or if we did decide we were gunna do more than grind, he went to the bathroom and put a condom on. (just in case). So when he got back we continued grinding and kissing naked.

In my head I kept on thinking that I was going to loose it to him that night. And at that thought I got really scared. He sensed I was scared and he asked me if I was ok. I replied "yes."  Even though I said that, he said something like "we don't have to do anything if you don't want to" or "if you want me to stop I will," because he didn't want to pressure me to do something I didn't want to cause he had done it before but I never had. I said something like I wanted to. So he stuck it in me gently, but even though he was gentle it hurt so bad. Seeing the expression on my face he took it out, knowing I was hurting really bad. He started kissing me again trying to make me feel better. He crawled behind me and we tried again. It started to feel really good but when he got a bit faster I almost screamed cause it started hurting really bad again. So he said we were done because he knew he hurt me, but it was something he couldn't really have avoided. He helped me get dressed and he went to the bathroom again.

When he came back I was still shaking and almost crying. He took me in his arms and held me from behind. When he went to wrap his arms around me he placed one of them around my stomache and I winced in pain. He had asked me earlier if I was ok or if he had hurt me and I said no. I didn't want to make him feel bad about anything. But then he started crying saying he was sorry, because I had wanted to wait until I was at least 17. I had to comfort him to make him feel better and I kept telling him I was ok. Then he'd touch my tummy and say "no your not." Eventually after about an hour or crying and calming each other down we went to sleep and dreaded the morning because I had to perform the next day at church.

When we woke up my mom was saying it was 9:30 and we needed to get ready for church. But since I was in a lot of pain still, I went and took a bath too feel better. he said that he'd be back. That he was only going out to his car. when I was done I went outside and he was gone. About half an hour later he came back and he gave me a teddy bear hoping I was feeling better and still apologizing. When we went out to the car I saw a half-dozen red roses in there for me. Also another thing to make me feel better. He was so sweet about it all. I have healed, I did wonderful on my performance and him and i are still together. 

Now him and I are closer than ever and are planning on getting a house and marrying after he is done with college. We're planning on having kids and making love with him is so amazing. But what I want everyone to know is that loosing your virginity is a very emotional thing. And you need to wait until you are ready and are in love. My mom still doesn't know that I am no longer her innocent little girl, and I am not planning on telling her because it would absolutly crush her. But I am not saying this is something everybody should do. If your parents are very understanding people, than they should understand. But if they're really religious... I am not sure if they would.

Thank you and I hope everybody makes sure they are ready and are in love.

Nikki

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Kristina

Hello, my name is Kristina and this is the story of the first time I had sex.

It was summer, I was 14 years old and I had been dating my then boyfriend, Carl, 15, for around 5 months. I know I should have waited, but whats happened has happened.

His parents were away visiting some of Carl's family in Canada, and his older sister was staying at her friends house until the Sunday (It was Friday), so he invited me around to stay the night. I spoke about it with my mom, because this would be the first time I had slept over there unsupervised, and she agreed to let me go.

When I was first there we were just watching some movies and television. We then started to make-out passionately. Carl was feeling me all over, he then started to undo my belt buckle.
I pulled away, and jumped up quickly, and asked him what he was doing. He apologised, and told me that if I wasn't ready then he'd wait. We carried on to make out, when he stopped and whispered "Are you sure you aren't ready?" I thought about it, and hesitantly agreed to.

Carl was happy about my decision, extatic even. He had promised he would be gentle, therefor he only used one finger, until he carefully slipped another in, and then a third, i winced as we hadn't even gotten this far before, I started to have second thoughts so I began to tense, which increased the pain, i yelped almost silently, Carl still didn't stop. Unaware of the mixed feelings I was having. He then stopped, and I thought he had realised my pain, but he hadn't, he only stopped to ask if he should move on, I saw the glimmers of hope in his eyes. I nodded, and he slowly pushed himself infront of me, and moved in and out.

Putting my legs on his shoulders, and lying ontop of me. I won't lie to you, it really hurt the first few times it went in, but then I was slightly numb, and it started to feel great, after about 20 minutes he quickly pulled out and walked away. I asked what was wrong, and he said nothing. I felt something inside of me, and he admitted he had came in me, after I had asked him not to. Shit. I didnt know what to do, I didn't take the pill because I was too worried, I know...bad move.
A month later, no period. I got my big sister to buy me a pregnancy test, to her horror she lectured me but then bought one.
Positive.

My sister was the first person I told, and she started crying hugging me, telling me how stupid i was.
I weas going to get an abortion, but I couldnt bring myself to do it.
I told Carl, and he dumped me. Accusing me of cheating on him, being unfaithful, sleeping around and being a whore.

Alot of my friends stopped talking to me, thinking I had cheated on Carl without telling them, but with time they believed me.

Carl denied everything to do with the pregnancy, to this day he says it wasn't his. We speak occasionally. I regret choosing him, but 5 years on, I have a beautiful son. I only wish I had waited, been older, and most of all used protection. I am now engaged to my gorgeous fiance, Darren. He treats Kai as if he was his own, and Kai calls him daddy. Kai is the best thing in my life, and I don't regret having him, I just wished I had of been older.
 

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Kat

Hi my name is Kat and I lost my virginity when I was 12, I am now 16.
I met Kory at the hospital where I was a volunteer. I was a candy striper and I got to bring him little trinkets. He was in the hospital because he had been shot. He was involved in gangs. After awhile he had to leave the hospital because he was all better and he game me his number.
I did not know what I wanted to do with it, so I did nothing for about 3 weeks. Then I called him. He remembered me and asked me to be his girlfriend. Things went great.

I had been dating Kory for about 2ms when we started talking about having sex. I told him we had to come up with a plan just in case anything would go wrong, like me getting pregnant. Well lets just say that all went to hell.

We had both decided that we would get tested, we didn't. We had decided we would use a condom and birth control, we did not use either. We said we would wait until I was 13 and he was 17 (he was 16 at the time) we didn't. I had told him that he needed to make it special, he defiantly didn't.

The night we had sex was the worst night of my life.

The train tracks in downtown is said to be where everything bad goes down, but it's also known for the best parties. I had been there once before and I had a ton of fun. The train tracks are really popular because they have all these abandoned train cars that kids can go in and mess around in.

So Kory and I went to one of the train cars where he said was a party. When we went inside I recognized some of his friends but it was odd because I was the only girl there. We then decided to get high. One of the guys Keoni had scored some "novelty shit" as he put it. I had never gotten high and the guys said they would look out for me. I trusted Kory to take care of me. Then we decided to snort some coke (I don't remember where we got it) and drink beers.

Then all of the sudden the guys started taking my clothes off, I was too high to realize and they laid me down and each of then took turns having sex with me. Kory went first. It hurt really bad and I bled everywhere, but I did not understand what was happening. After they had all had their fun they left me with bruises from having sex in a train car (they are totally gross) with my clothes off, in a pool of my own blood, and with sperm leaking from my body.

I woke up about a few hours later and called my best friend Shayna and told what had happened. She came and got me and took me to her house.I spent 3 days there refusing to leave and Shayna just took care of me.

I contact Kory and yelled at him for letting that happen to me, he said that he was sorry and that I had said yes, and he starting crying, I forgave him.

Finally Shayna convinced me to go to the hospital
There they tested me for STDs and to see if I was pregnant.
I had Chlamydia,Gonorrhea, Pelvic Inflammatory Disease and worst of all Hepatitis C. Thank god those are all treatable. I recovered from them all. Then I found out I was pregnant. I was raised by a mother who got pregnant by accident and when she was a teenager. I knew that I could not give my baby up. I decided to keep it.

I found out who the father was and it was Kory, wow I was lucky there.

When I told Kory it was his, he said that we would love to help me raise a baby. Everything was going great! Then I found out I was having twins. It was hard but I made it threw.

My babies are four years old their names are Gabe and Sam, Kory wanted to name them. A month after having my sons I got pregnant again (the second time Kory and I had sex) the condom broke and the pill did not help. I had twins again, my girls are three years old. Their names are Mischa and Shayna (after my best friend).

I now work and go to school full time. I am working to become a nurse, I have always been really smart. I dropped out, got my g.e.d and I'm in my second year of college and I already work at a local hospital. There is a daycare there and my kids get to go for free. Kory joined the army after being caught with drugs the court gave him options, either join the army, go to jail, go to military school. He chose to join the army. He has been serving for a few years now and he sends money back to us. I miss him, we are still not married.

My best friend Brenna and my mother died. They were on their way to pick me up from the hospital when they were hit by a drunk driver. Shayna helped me through it all.

The days are hard, but I never give up, I love Kory despite what happened.

Wait until you are older kids, having sex just is not worth it. The two times I have had sex I have gotten pregnant. Most people judge me, but hey, I'm a mother of four, I'm a nurse, I'm happy, but I always wonder what could have been if I had just waited longer.  

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Katie

My name is Katie, I was 17 when I lost my virginity and it was with my boyfriend. We had been dating almost 5 months, and I had never felt love like that before. We had talked about it and I said it would happen when I was ready and no sooner. So we gradually took bigger and bigger steps in our relationship. One day I pulled a muscle in my leg and couldn’t go to school and my boyfriend stayed home took take care of me, he was so sweet and caring, he rubbed my leg all day. That night when I was talking to him on the phone he said he felt really sick and would call me back. When he called he said he had been throwing up but felt better so we continued to talk, then he said he was going to be sick again to I told him to just go to bed and call me in the morning.

The next morning I got a call from him and he said he was throwing up all night and he didn’t think he could make it to school. So I decided not to go to school as well. I went to the store and bought some juices and came to see him. It felt so right to take care of him, and he just kept saying how much it meant to him that I stayed home as well. Before that day I wasn’t even considering having sex with him, but it was right, and I knew it was. So I looked at him and said I think I am ready, he looked at me and said,” are you sure”, I was. Then he picked me up and carried me to him bedroom, he put the condom on and I said I just need a minute which turned into like 10, but I was just so scared. I was afraid if he had sex it would have to happen all the time, I was afraid that we would start to fight a lot more and it would complicate our relationship, but finally I was willing to take the RISK. It hurt SO bad I was shaking, I didn’t want to tell him to stop, but I really don’t think I could have been able to talk if I wanted to, I couldn’t think or move, I just wanted him to hurry so it could be over with. The second it was over with I began to cry really hard and he just held me until I was okay again.

We are still together, and happy. Yes there have been some tough times between us but we have always worked past them. I won’t lie and say things haven’t changed in our relationship. Having sex makes you feel so strongly about the person it was with. I HIGHLY advise not having sex unless you are in love, and trust the person more than you do anyone else. Because all you are doing is opening yourself up to this person, loving them and doing things with them that you never have done in your life, and if you aren’t careful you will ultimately be hurt. I don’t know if I will be with him forever but I know I will be glad that I shared my whole heart with him. I am glad my first time was with someone I loved if it doesn’t last I will still be happy with the experience, I feel so LUCKY that I wasn’t one of the many girls out there who got tricked or taken advantage of. Don’t let it happen to you either, be smart, be careful, and make sure its real. Because that’s something you can never get back and you don’t want to regret it.  

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Ali

My name is Ali, I'm 17-years-old. I lost my virginity when i was 14, the guy i did it with was 20. i have to say that i wish i had not done it so early, not because i feel bad about it but because i was too young and my body did not enjoy it to the fullest. when it happened i really wasnt expecting it, it didnt even crossed my mind.

 i met this guy named "j" on the internet, we messaged each other for a couple of months and he decided to give me his number. at first i wasnt sure about calling him since i barely knew him and for all i knew he could have been a sexual predator, but i decided to take my chances. then we talked for like a month when one day he dared me to meet him, for i told him i was a really shy girl, and truly i was(at the time). so we did meet finaly, but it was in a public place for safety. we talked for some hours when we decided to go to his place, and i accepted because he seem really cool and laid back and plus his house was very close to mi school so i didnt feel afraid but very nervous(i know now that was too risky) so when we were at his place he asked me if i wanted to watch a movie,and i was like ok.

he put the movie on and i sat down on one end of his big couch, then he sat at the other end of the couch(but to tell you the truth i actually wanted him close to me) but not even 10 minutes went by when he said " can i ask you something?" and i said "ok ask," he asked me if he could kiss me but i thought that i had just met this guy i couldnt do it now, it was too soon! but then i was dying to know what a kiss felt like( i know, lame) so i decided to give in to my curosity. he came and stood in front of me, i was expecting him to sit down next to me but oh well, he bent down and kissed me and at that point i wanted to stand but he pushed me back and ended up on top of me. i wasnt sure what to do, i was soo nervous and i felt like if i said something i was going to ruin the moment(something that i really didnt want) so we kissed for like 10 minutes, but i was fired up by that time, a feeling i didnt know how to handle.

 he started to caress my tummy and then worked his way up with his hands, and i liked it so i let him. before i knew it i had no shirt or bra on me, he was touching me all over and i felt like i was gonna explode of how good it felt, and i didnt feel nervous anymore, i was actually fascinated with the fact that i had a man on top of me, touching me and wanting me. you all know the rest, but i got to say that i didnt enjoy it at all, it was too painful. after that "j" asked me to be his girlfriend but we only lasted for two months because of family issues. but even after breaking up we still kept seeing each other, in secret, we formed our little sexual affair and its been going on for 4 years now.

 many of you may think by now that i must be a slut, but i have to say i only did it with him, and yes i did have many boyfriends, and yes i cheated on them with him, but i never did it with any of them, because i didnt need to, i have him. i dont feel any guilt whatsoever, and im not going to stop because i like it that way, it adds spice to my life. i just wanted to share my story with all of you because i felt like it. i dont want to influence anybody to do what i do, because i have to tell you that in order to this you gotta be a person that doesnt get emotionaly attached very easily and can let go easily because otherwise you'll get hurt and it can even turn in an obssesion that can make your life hell.

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Stormy

hey my name is stormy...my first time was with my boyfriend been dating for 15 months today!..

We had a dance at my school which we were attending but little did our parents know we planned to leave early to lose our virginty to each other!..we had been dating for about nine months...he rented a hotel room so we would have some where to go!..he did everything to make me more comfortable....i asked him to play music and have candles to make it special for us!..

.we got there and we were scared to death but after kissin and touching we decided it was time...he put on the condom and he entered me...it hurt SO BAD!!!!......my advice to everyone is to make sure your ready..i dont regret any moment of that night or any other night we do things....it is amazing just make sure you love the person you are with and are willing to face the consequences if the girl were to get pregnant!!...that is a big responsibility.....just BE SAFE!!!!.....trust me..

i thought i was pregnant when we didnt use protection but luckily i wasnt!...it may feel better without a condom but always use one there is always the chance of gettin pregnant no matter what your on!...

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Jen

Hi, im Jen.

I lost my virginity when i was 13. Im currently 14. I was dating this guy Isaac for a while and he decided that this might be the right time for both of us. I told him i wasnt ready to do it with him yet and that we dont need sex. But he talked me into and we decided to not plan it and just let it happen.

Only one week later, we were at my house making out on my bed at my house. He started moving his hand up my shirt. I let him knowing that this was it. He moved down to my neck and my shoulder. Then he gently started taking my panties off as if to make it seem ok. I let him. And we had sex that night.

The next day, we acted like our relationship couldnt get any better. Because that right there showed both of us that we could be together forever and that we were truly in love. Wrong. Thats what i THOUGHT. But that EXACT day he told everybody and he spreaded false rumors about me saying i gave him head.

The next day we broke up. And i realized all he wanted was sex. We still talk from time to time, but that changed my life forever.

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Linda

   My first time was great and confusing all at the same time.  Before I tell the story you will need some background information to help you understand why it was so confusing.

 I had dated this guy for awhile and we had recently broken up but neither of us were sure that a break up was what we wanted.  It just didn't seem to be working out.  We were texting and we had a huge fight over text (which is really lame I know but that is all he would do is text never wanted to chat).  Well after a few hours it was sinking in that I probably needed to apologize.  I sent him a text and asked him if I could come over so we could chat.  I went over and we probably chatted for 2 or 3 hours and it seems like we had worked it out.  By now it was 1am and I had been up all night getting ready for a test the night before.  He went to take his dog out for the night and while he was out there I fell asleep on his couch.  When he came back in he just laid by me.  The next thing I knew I was waking up to his hands down my pants.  I was mortified.  I had no clue what to do.  Because of the shock of it all I just sat there and pretended to be asleep.  He kept on putting his hands in and out touching me and then licking his fingers.  I was disgusted.  So I started to move around and "woke up"  When I woke up he said he needed to use the bathroom.  While he was gone I would just walk home.

He came back out and I was on the verge of tears, but I was determined to hold it in.  I said, I'm going to go home, it's getting late.  He asked me if I wanted him to walk me, I said no that I would be ok.  I really just neeeded the space even though I was a little scared to walk home alone.  When I got home my roomie was home and had fallen asleep.  I just went in the bathroom and bawled.  Ok enough of that part.

  About 6 months later I stated dating the guy I am with now.  It was hard for me to trust a guy again after being taken advantage of like that. We dated and I told him that I wanted to take it very slow because I had a bad last relationship.  He was super nice and didn't even kiss me until we'd been dating like 4 months.  (He was really patient with me Thank goodness).  After about 8 months we started getting pretty serious.  I was comfortable with our relationship and I trusted him.  We talked about sex and I told him the story about what happened with the last guy I dated and that I wanted to wait until I was married because of it and because of my religious beliefs.  He said that he was ok with that although he said he thought it would be hard.  We got engaged after we'd dated about a year and a half.  But here's the part I know you are all waiting for.

To be honest the day we got married was fine until we left the lunch and headed to the hotel he got.  I was scared to death but tried to act causal.  I don't think I did a very good job because he told me if I was too nervous he loved me enough that he was willing to wait until I was ready.  I didn't want to make him wait.  We got to the hotel and dropped off our stuff then went to grab some dinner.  After dinner we went to our room.  I have never been more uncomfortable and I am never uncomfortable around him. 

I went to take a shower to help me relax.  I talked myself into sex while I was in the shower and came out in the lingerie that was a bridal shower gift.  I told him that I wanted to take it really slow.  We just started kissing and he asked if he could take off the top.  I reluctantly let him and it was ok.  We he finally asked if he could touch me down there I almost died.  I started crying and said no, that I wasn't ready.  I told him I didn't know how something that was supposed to be used to express love could hurt someone so much.  I could tell he was a little mad at the guy that did that too me and so I tried to get the nerves.  It took me about 2 hours but I finally let him.  After awhile he tried to go in and it hurt so bad.  I think the reason it hurt so bad was because I was so scared.  Later that night we tried again and it worked but it still hurt. 

We fell asleep and in the morning we tried again.  This time it was finally good and I was glad that I tried and didn't make him wait.  Before we got to the point where we are now I visited with a few counselors to help me get passed the issue I was dealing with.  it wasn't fair to my husband to have to carry around my luggage when there shouldn't have been any.

 I'm still married to him 3 years later and almost  done with school.  In the fall I will start my job working with girls who have been raped and sexually assualted.  I decided that I went through a hard time in my life and I wanted to help other people get through similar situations.  I will not let my experience of how I got through this go without helping as many as I can.  I will never be ashamed to talk about sex or sexual abuse with anyone.  It needs to come out so the victim can move on.

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Cassius

Heyo, name’s Cassius, I lost my virginity when I was fifteen, I am now 16. I don’t regret it, but I should have been more careful.

It sprung up on me, I was completely unprepared because I don’t have many friends who are girls. Yeh I’m goodlooking, but not goodtalking, heh had to add a joke in there. Anyway It started in my maths class and I was keeping my eye on this real fine girl, you know, I would always try to sit near her and try to get her attention. One day she is sitting all alone at a table I maths class and I sit opposite her. Other girls sit on the table and there you have it, the only guy on a table full of girls hehe. We all get talking, not doing much work, and we talk about heaps of random subjects and stuff, it wasn’t till the girl I liked mentioned that I have some nice innocent eyes and dark skin, cos I’m afro American, and they were all white girls. I thanked her and complimented her on her hair or something, you know.

That was the bloody best maths class eva and I really made an impression. At the end of the class one of them invites me to this fair which is on, on Saturday. They said they all goin be dere, so I said aight cool sister lol.

I went to the fair, saw da girls ya know hung out, hangin out wit some fine girls lol the whole fair was great and then the girl I liked comes up to me and said do you want to hang out at my crib. I said would it be a bit crowded with everybody. She jus smiled and said nah you and me. I told my friend who was at the fair aswell about what she said and he was happy for me and said yo gonn ge laid. He had like 5 condoms in his pocket cos he works at the supermarket and just steals them, so he gave me 2 just in case I ripped da first one.

I arrive at her place, while goin to her place I didn’t actually think anything was going to happen, cos I had never done it before, also I thought she was jus kidding around. She starts showing me all her things, such as playstation cds radios, all anticipation up to the point where she gets to her room. She grabs a stuffed toy and starts hugging it, telling me it was her second fav toy, I ask ‘so wats yo first?’ as if I didn’t know. She grabs and we start kissing fo like ages, she was like drunk, I was completely sober, cos I heard it increase da pleasure, I didn’t drink that much as she thought I did.

I wasn’t real sure how to do it, but I just went slow and gentle u know, I think it hurt her at first but I could see she was enjoying it. It was ok for me, but it was actually better to see her feeling so good instead of only me. She said her parents were gone for the weekend and she wanted me to stay the night, so I did. When I woke up I thought ‘ did that actually happen?’ when she was lying next to me I knew it did. I didn’t tell anyone only my friend who gave me the condom, I told him not to tell anyone, but the next day everyone knew, I was so pissed off and even worse she thought I was telling every one, I assured her I wasn’t.

We are still together, and I would die for her, but my advice is you really get to know the girl before you have sex.

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Jeremy

Hey,
My names Jeremy. Im currently 14. I lost my virginity when i was 13. This was by far the biggest mistake of my life.

Her name was anna. We had met in the 4th grade. She dated alot of my friends but never showed any interest in me. She moved in 7th grade. Thats when we started to talk. We would talk on the phone all night. I began to like her alot. She told me that she was coming down to visit for a week and that we should hang out.by this time we both liked each other. We had never talked about doing anything.

 When she came down we hung out at a friends house. Nothing really happend at first. Then we walked over to our other frinds house. Some how we got looked inside a room together.

We start to talk then she kissed. I had done almost everything before this, so it was nothing new. Things quickly got more and more sexuall. Before i knew it i was on top of her with a condom on. I asked her if she was sure that she wanted this. She said yes. I knew that i wasnt ready, but i didnt want to look like a pussy to all my friends, so i did it.

It was very uncomfortable. We didnt make eye contact the entire time. When it was finally over she hugged me and left.

It was the worst experienc of my life. I felt like i was missing apart of me. I didnt love her.not at all. It was horrible.

My "friends" soon found out and told everyone at school. My life turned over. I had no friends. All the girls thought i was a pervert.

Things eventually got better. My only advice is to wait. And make sure you love the person. 

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Grace

My name is Grace, I'm 15. I was 13 and I'd been with a lovely guy for a few months, we'd kiss and hug but not much more. His parents were on holiday so he invited me to stay with him for the night, expecting to spend the night watching movies, I agreed.

Throughout the night, our intimacy progressed. As well as hugging, he would stroke my leg and body. It was a new feeling but it felt right.

Before I knew it, we were both naked, on the couch. He was ontop of me and I could tell that he was aroused. There was so much going through my mind that I didn't think about contraception. We just did it. I have to admit, initially it did hurt but eventually, it felt right. It was like heaven. When he was done, he simply rolled over next to me and hugged me.

Almost a month after my 14th birthday, I had missed a few periods, so I got my friend to buy a pack of pregnancy tests. The first one came up positive but I kept kidding myself. I did 3 tests. Each showed positive.

I was terrified. How was I to explain to my Catholic parents that I was pregnant? I decided to confront my boyfriend.I explained the situation, told him honestly that I was pregnant and that it was his, it couldn't have been anyone elses as I'd only done it once. I thought he'd be supportive and caring but instead, he called me a whore, accused me of sleeping around. He dumped me and spread rumours.

My world fell apart. I joined sports clubs, starved myself, got into fight. Tried all sorts to kill my baby. It was evil but I was 13 and terrified.

I was later admitted to hospital. I'd miscarried. Most mothers would be distraught but I was relieved. No more baby. Nothing to be scared of.

Obviously, my parents found out and, although they were initially furious, they supported me.

People can't wait to have sex, it's exciting and daring but I say. Don't. Don't do it until you are physically and mentally ready. For girls, imagine that you fell pregnant, no matter what precaution you took, how would you cope?

Keep your virginity as long as you can and make the first time special.

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Erika

My name is erika and I'm 18. I'd been talking to a guy I met online for a couple months. After about 2 months we decided to meet up. He was in a town only 20 minutes away n so I went to his town where we hung out. After that night I knew I really liked him. We didn't even do anything sexual or even kiss. We jus talked and laughed about stupid things.

We started to hang out more and more over the next 2 months and decided to take things more seriously.  We wuld only mess around and make out because he knew I was a virgin still and that I planned on waiting. He wasn't a virgin and I kno it must of been hard for him because there was soo many times wen we wuld get close to having sex.

Well when my birthday came he couldn't hang out with me that weekend because he had a big game out of town. He told me he would make it up to me. So tha weekend after my birthday he came over when my parents were out of town.  We sat on the couch and kissed each other every now and then between our little talks. After a while we began to make out and he asked if we could go to my room. I hesitated for a while but gave in.

He chased me up the stairs and into my room. We began kissing again and he lead me to my bed where he laid down on top of me. We made out for maybe 5-10 minutes til he started unzipping my pants. We slowly took eachothers clothes off and he started to finger me. I couldn't help but let him pull down my panties and just let it rub up against me. He began to pull me on top of him and he pulled out a condom from his pants that were laying on the bed. I had no idea he put it on while we were kissing. I must have been really into it. So we switched positions back to where he was on top.

He began to slowly put it in me and do his thing. A pain came over me as he did this, and I pulled him closer and dug my nails in his back. it hurt for a while but suddenly it felt soo good. I have to admit that throughout all of it I felt pain and pleasure. It was beautiful. As we kept goin he began to get rougher and we had to stop for a while. Remember, this was my first time. We jus layed there in eachothers arms listening to eachother breathe. We began again for a while. We finally stopped after a while and layed there kissing eachother gently. We got up and put our clothes back on. He came up to hug me and kiss me once more. I've never felt so happy before then. I lost my virginity at the age of 18, just 6 days after my birthday.

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S, aged 15

Hi, I'm S and im 15 years old.

I want everyone to know about the first time i lost my virginity, how i fell in and out of love whilst having sex, having an abortion, and how it feels when you lose the person you lose your virginity to. I may ramble on a bit, but its the first time i've been able to tell people about this.

I lost my virginity when i was 14 years old.  He was 15 at the time. I regret some of it..not all of it.

I was in love, fact. I'm not butt ugly, but im not one of the prettiest girls, but i've got a good figure and personality that makes up for it. I had previously dated my boyfriend in year 7 at school, but things didn't work out then, we didn't talk until year 10, when he realised he fancied me again. Everyone at school new that both me and him liked being in relationships and we weren't scared to make out with people. So when we got together we had a bit of a reputation already.

Things went really fast, our reputation was held to its name. We ended up having sex after 3 weeks of going out. We were both gagging for it, it was the first time for both of us, which made it a lot easier. We were also drunk, thats the only bit i regret, the first time we were planning to have sex he didn't have a condom, so HE said no the first time to protect me, when he said this i knew he loved me. But this time we had had a few drinks, i can remember it being good, i just wish i was 100% sober.

Well, that was it, everyone at school found out and started asking questions. We didn't mind at first, we were having sex 3 times a day and our parents trusted us enough to sleep at eachothers houses on weekends so it was great. We both lived for our sex, we did loads of different positions everytime, thats when it started getting worst, when friends found out about these. I know i shouldn't listen to them. It's when they start teasing you with the pregnancy stuff that gets to you.

We were going out for 4 months, he dumped me the day before valentines day. I was heartbroken. We didn't talk for ages, we couldn't even look at eachother it was a horrible feeling.Then on fair night i saw him with one of my mates with his arm round her shoulder, the next day at school i found out he'd had sex with her too, they were both drunk.

Thats when i thought i was pregnant.It came at the worst time possible. I couldn't tell anyone, not even my twin sister. I had a best boy mate that was also close to my ex. We were talking about how i still wished i was with him, then we started joking around, and then he said, haha, imagine what he'd say if he thought you were pregnant, after he said that i couldn't look him in the eye, he knew my secret. He was really good to me, he looked after me all day even though he had a girlfriend. He encouraged me to tell my girl mates, so i did, they went and got me a pregnancy test. I couldn't face up to doing it though. I needed him to know. My best boy mate told him for me. I wish i didn't let him, it was horrible. He didn't talk to me, but talking with his mates he accused me of having sex with someone else. That broke my heart even more.

I took the test. I found out it was positive but told my mates it was negative. I was so scared.

I had the abortion on my own. It was horrible, the emotion was terrible, i kept it all in and made out there was nothing wrong. No-one suspected anything, no-one knows to this day. After my ex thought i wasn't pregnant he started hanging round with me at school, we started talking again. It was great, one day he put hs arms round my shoulders when i had my back to him and he whispered in my ear "******, i'm so sorry for everything, i still love you, will you go back out with me?" I couldn't say no, i still loved him loads. So we got back together.

We went out for another two months and then he finished with me again, my heart broke in two. This time we still spoke a little bit. Then two weeks later i found out he had a new girlfriend. That hurt. 3 weeks into going out with her, he started secretly emailing me, i couldn't believe it, heres the conversation we had;

hey its *****i was just wondering if you thought i dumped you for ****if you do think tht well sorry coz i didnt even though im going out wid ****i still miss you and theres still apart of me tht still loves you

hey, i didn't think that, i still love you. i miss you more than anything.

hey
if i wasnt going out wid **** i would have asked you out but i am sorry its hurtin me to say all this
but i wont you to hope tht as soon as me and shiv have broke up i wan toyu to be the first to know,
welll i dont think it will coz all my m8s think im ditchin them like they thought when i was going out wid you so i'm going to go out with my m8 alot more and i dont think she'll like tht
ill see you at school tomorrow well thts if you even want to see me i didnt mind
w/b i do still love you x

We spoke on the phone a lot, and we cried about everything, it was so sad as we both talked about and remembered our past, but it was a relief for both of us, we turned heads when we intimately hugged at school, but when he started kissing me at school the rumours started, because he still had a girlfriend. A week later, he asked me to go to a party that he was supposed to be taking his girlfriend to. I went, i was already really close to all his family and he was the same to mine, so they loved it when i walked in instead of his new girlfriend, because apparently she hadn't made a good impression. Anyway, we danced all night, and he asked me out just before we got into bed. I said yes again.

We went out for another 7 months. It was the best time we'd ever had, we sorted out our problems and agreed not to hide anything we needed to talk about. People kept getting at me saying he was using me for sex, because he kept coming back to me, and they all knew i wanted it. However, we realised soon he would be 16, making it illegal for him to have sex with me, he promised me he wouldn't have sex with me until i was 16 too. I couldn't bear it, it was a daunting thought, i knew he would finish with me before he was 16. Because we both didn't want him to be 16, we started having arguments because i didn't mind having sex with him when he was 16 but he did. These arguments meant we were having less sex, and so we argued even more because of this.

A few weeks later his best mate told me that he had spent the weekend at another girls house who i didn't get along with, his best mate and my boyfriend assured me nothing happened. We argued a lot after that, and eventually we decided to end it again. This was 3 days before his birthday and 1 week before christmas 07. We had already arranged for him to have me for christmas with his family, and he had asked for me to wake up with him on christmas morning, but as soon as we finished i thought that was out of the window. I was wrong, he phoned me and said are you still coming? there's no point letting your present go to waste! So i went over, i gave him his christmas and birthday presents! He thanked me lots.

It was so easy to relax with him because of our history, so it wasn't a bit awkward. We were having a laugh, watching a film on his bed and then we started having a few drinks. We went out to the garden while his family went to bed. We went in, and before i new it he was hugging me and he lifted me onto his kitchen worksurface just like he used to. One thing led to another and we ended up having the most passionate sex we've ever had, it was one of the first times we had all our emotion in it. Before, i had always insisted on keeping clothes on incase of being interrupted by his family, but this time was different. It was great. He still brags to his mates about it now

I don't know why i was scared of his family walking in, they all knew, his brother had caught us, and he had told his mum, which made things easier, she always made sure he treated me right. Even though me and her son finished shes still like a mum to me.

That christmas is one of our best ever memories. We'll never forget it. We've realised we're better as mates. 2006-2007 was the best year of my life.

I hope people realise that you can still move on, never regret anything that made you smile, i don't understand people that regret losing there virginity. It doesn't have to be the highlight of your life, its the other sexual relationships that will matter if your first time is horrible. Oh yes, and remember, sex isn't everything. Enjoy it though, the more imaginative girls, the better, thats what boys like.

People who suffered in silence like me don't need to, thats why i'm telling my story now. No-one should ever have to suffer with an abortion. Its the worst experience ever, don't get to that point, use a condom please.

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Erica

Hello my name is Erica. I lost my virginity at the age of 13. I am now 14. Heres how the story goes:

This boy Danny who I have been dating for four months was walking me home from school one day. We were walking and talking. He was a year older than me. I was in 7th grade he was in 8th. We started talking about school. H said he needed to stop by the pharmacy (you pass a pharmacy on the way to my house from my school) to buy pencils. So we walked into the pharmacy and we went to the "school supply" isle. He took a few pencils from the shelf and we walked over to the check out counter. We passed a "family planning" isle. He walked in it and I followed. He began to look at the condoms and asked me if I was ready. We had talked about sex tuns of times but never really did it. I said I wasn't sure but to buy them just in case. So we bought 2 packs of condoms and a pack of pencils.

Two nights later he came to my house for dinner. My parents were out of town that night (Friday night, Saturday night, and came back on a Sunday morning) and my older brother was away at collage so we had the house to our selfs. we went up in my room and were watching a movie. we were cuddling and kissing. i put my hand down and i missed the floor and found my hand on his pants. i quickly moved my hand to the floor. when the movie was done we began to make out.

we went down the hall out side of my house (i live in an apartment) and we went to the vending machines to get some snacks. he opened his wallet to get a dollar and a few condoms fell out. ( i let him keep the boxes at his house) He asked me if this was the night and i said sure. i picked up the condoms and we turned around to go back to my room and there was his older brother (his brother was best friends was the people that lived next to me) our faces turned bright red.

Danny turned to his brother and said "Erica and I found these in the vending machines." Danny's brother said "Danny I saw the boxes in your bedroom under your bed. I won't tell Mom or dad only if u give me one." So I gave him one and Danny and I ran to my house. We went into my room and began to make out again. We were laying on my bed and we took off our clothes. he got on top of me and put on a condom. it hurt a lot when he put it in me. i thought i was going to cry but luckily i didn't. he asked if it hurt and i said yes so he stopped. i began to bleed alittle. when he was taking off the condom he realized he had ejaculated a lot. He thought that maybe some got in me.

A few days later I told Danny that I had skipped my period and that my stomach was hurting me alot. so we went to the pharmacy and bought a Pregnancy Test. The test said I wasn't pregnant. we were both relived. We had more and more sex and are still together today. thank you for reading my story!

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