Julie-Sara

Hi. My name is Julie-Sara and I would like to tell you about my first time. I was 17. I would have to say that it was like a love story. Everyday me and my boyfriend would talk, text and call each other. Everytime he see me he would say he loves me and he would kiss me. One night me and him started kissing and things starte to get heated. He told me that he loved me and that he wanted to express that love. So then he asked me if we could make love. Of course I said yes. He started to kiss my neck while he was taking off my pants. I took of my shirt and he started to undress. He started to finger me and then he put his penis in me. At first it hurt a lot! Then after about 2 minutes it started to feel good. So I told him to go faster and faster. After about 45 minutes we stopped. We just cuddled and fell asleep. About a couple weeks later I found out I was pregnat. We didn\'t use a condom. I felt so horrible so I went to a clinic and got an abortion. I felt so horrible. My boyfriend and I are engaged. I am now 19. He still doesnt know. If any girls/boys are thinking about having with someone, make sure that you love the person and they are special, you use a condom, and make sure you know what your doing. Or you might have to go through with what I have to go through. And its not fun...

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Paige

Hello. I\'m Paige. (: I lost my virginity when I was 13. I actually am still 13. If you\'d like to here an \'aw\' story, here you go.

Well, me and my ex-boyfriend Devin had started talking in early April of this year (2009) and we didn\'t start going out until May 4. We figured we wanted a serious relationship that would last. Well, me and him are very mature for our age. He was 14 when we were going out and I was 13 through the whole thing. My birthday is in early January. His is in mid October of \'94. Well, with me and him, we\'re so much alike. So much in common and so many of the same feelings. We just click with each other. We have amazing chemistry and we knew it. We were so comfortable with each other and we could tell each other everything. We were lovers and best friends. When we started going out with each other the only thing we had done with the opposite sex was kiss. Not make-out, just a simple kiss. We never knew what it would turn into.

Well, his parents are pretty awesome. I would go over to his house every weekend (usually twice a weekend) to see him. The first Saturday I went to his house I came over at 8 AM and didn\'t leave until 7:30 PM. Pretty much the whole entire day we just layed down in his bed and cuddled (his parents let us be alone in his room with the door shut). We did that for a month, not moving very fast at all. We were both so nervous to do anything that it took us a month to just kiss each other. By that point we already knew that we loved each other a lot and were already starting to fall in love. After we kissed, everything just happened from there.

Since we were so comfortable with each other, we talked about EVERYTHING before we did it. I was going to summer camp for two weeks and leaving on July 5. The first time we kissed was [June 2]. Well.. we had done everything you could besides two things: him eating me out and having sex. About a week before I left for my trip we were talking and everything and we decided that it would be best to have a supply of condoms just in case something did happen. We knew that it was going to happen soon. So, his step-dad went out to Target to buy his condoms and when he got back from my house that day there was a box sitting on his bed. That was the beginning of it all.

Two days later I went over to his house. Like always, we were sitting up in his room laying on his bed cuddling, kissing and talking. I ended up giving him a boner in the midst of it all. I felt it and was turned on. How could I not be?! I knew that I was ready; he knew that he was ready. So.. I asked him. \'Do you wanna have sex?\' His reply: Idk.. I guess I kind of pressured him into it. I didn\'t pressure him into it though; I know that he was just extremely nervous and I would have to be the one to make a move. So, I convinced him into having sex that day. I got a condom from the side of his bed and he put it on. I then pulled down my pants and underwear and he did the same, pulling his down to his knees. Then I lay on my back and spread my legs. He got on top and entered me. It was a moment of lust and love; of shock and disbelief. I couldn\'t believe that I was with the man of my dreams, the man that I had known about and had a crush on for 8 years that never noticed me. I couldn\'t believe it.

I told him to stop for just a second, to just stay inside of me. I wanted it to be at least a little special, not just like two horn dogs which is what we pretty much were. He stopped and breathed hard and I whispered I love you and he said it back and I kissed him and put my head back down and said \'Okay, go ahead\' and he started up again and kissed my neck. It was a passionate moment we shared, one like no other. I cannot replace it. It didn\'t go on for very long; he rarely ever masturbated so he came in 5 minutes time. I was okay with that, I didn\'t think that I\'d experience a vaginal orgasm the first time because I had never in my life been able to reach it. When he came I couldn\'t believe how much I loved him; how completely in love with him I was.

We went out for 3 more months only. We had sex 10 times total. He had said that he had fallen out of love with me, just recently admitting that it was because he listened to everyone else and realized that I wasn\'t beautiful like he had always told me but instead I was ugly. We broke up on our exact 5 month anniversary; October 5, 12 days before his 15th birthday that he said he wanted to celebrate with me. The break-up was very difficult and so heart wrenching. I still cry at least once a week because I miss him so much. Not so much as my lover but as my best friend.

I have to say though, through everything that has happened between us recently, I do not regret losing my virginity to him. I could not have asked for a better man to take it from me. At the time he loved me very much and believe every word of that. The things between us didn\'t changed; we did. Some people change and grow together; some people change and grow apart. With us it was the latter. It\'s unfortunate the way things worked out. We said that we\'d do anything to be together forever and I truly truly believed him.

The moral of this whole story I think is that.. you have to wait until you\'re ready. Don\'t do anything that you\'re going to regret later on. If you have any doubts, my all means, DON\'T DO IT. Peer pressure can cause many bad things but don\'t give in. Stay strong and stick to your beliefs and your morals. Peoples whose morals and beliefs that are different than mine that found out I had sex are calling me a slut now. \'Slut\' is just a word. They don\'t know how I was feeling at the time and they won\'t until they feel that way themselves. I was in love; that won\'t ever make anyone a slut.

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Ikenna

OK so I am 14 years old. I lost my virginity to a girl a few days before my 14th birthday (best birthday present EVER!!). My birthday is on April 28th 1995. This happened on the 22nd of April 2009. It was on a Saturday. I am a seventh day adventist so i go to church on saturday. My sister had her friend spending the night.   They both went to the movies with my mother to see \"Obsessed\". I stayed home. I was watching a Nets game and i fell asleep and they woke me up when they came back home. So then I went upstairs to my room and started making my bed. My sisters friend came in my room with nothing but a T-Shirt on and she went in my bed. I said \"I guess your gonna sleep with me tonight\" just playing around. So she just layed down. Then i I went in bed with her and not even 5 seconds after she went on top of my and we started to make out. After about 5 minutes of kissing she went into my sisters room and came back. We  started kissing again and this is where it happened. I went into my drawer next to my bed and pulled out a condom and put it on. I turned her over on her back and went on top of her. I started to put my dick in of her pusy and she made a little sound. I said \"are you sure you want to do this\" and she said \"positive\". So then i started to pull my penis out and inside of her at a descent pace. I went on like this for about 10-15 minutes. Then I said that its her turn and she went on to of me. She started to ride me very fast and aggressive. It was so amazing. She went on for about 10 minutes. After I took the condom off examined it to see if it had tore (it didn\'t) and I threw it away. I just put my boxers and her panties on and then we just cuddled together in bed kissing every now and then. I started to rub her skin. I put my hand in her panties and she took it out and put it on her breasts. She fell asleep but I don\'t know when. Maybe 10 minutes after I fell asleep. She woke me up when she left my room to go back to my sisters room (which was a smart idea because she would have found out. 

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Anon

I am 21 years old and I am a virgin. When I was fifteen years old I made a promise to God, myself, and my future husband that I would save myself until marriage.

My first relationship was when I was a freshman in college (19). His first relationship too. We were both immature and really not ready for a relationship and really didn\'t know what they were about but I will never regret giving my first kiss to him. Most of our relationship was physical even though we never had sex. We never talked (except sexual innuendos) and I\'d try to do more with him but (even though he said he was waiting too) all he wanted was a physical relationship and not a RELATIONSHIP. I did love him and I felt a strong sexual desire towards him but I was always holding back because I wasn\'t ready yet....

After a little less than a year I started dating my current boyfriend. Because of certain circumstances, I\'ve had to be away from him for most of the relationship. We have been physical, but we\'ve focused more on building up our relationship first (because of the distance) I feel closer to him than I have any other person. He\'s been in sexual relationships before, I haven\'t, but that doesn\'t mean that our relationship is any less strong because of it. We both love and respect each other so much that we wouldn\'t dream of forcing the other person to do something they didn\'t want.

If it wasn\'t for the promise I made with God, I would be ready to have sex at 21. Physically, I\'m ready, I know my body and I know enough to see a gynecologist. I know what\'s normal for me and what isn\'t. Knowledge-wise, I\'m ready too; I know about contraceptives and STDs. (and the horrible consequences of STDs) I know enough to prevent myself from getting pregnant because I know that neither me nor my boyfriend are at a place in our lives where we could take care of a baby. I know the risks and I know the steps to take to prevent risks. Mentally and spiritually I am ready too (except for making a promise to God) I know how much I love my boyfriend and how I want to express that love to him. I know how much my boyfriend loves me, and how together we know each other better than anyone else. I feel no shame in confiding in him about everything. He\'s my best friend, and I\'m his. Most importantly I know that sex is all about what YOU personally are comfortable with even though it\'s about a physical way to tell someone that you love him. I know that when I do loose my virginity, it will be a very special night because I saved myself. Yes, it might hurt, but ultimately I\'ll be with a man I love unconditionally and I\'ll be in a situation where it\'s only for myself and him.

According to my boyfriend, it\'s one of the most intimate ways you can know a person. I can\'t wait to be intimate like that someday too.

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Unknown

I was 17 years old when i had sex and i REALLY REGRET IT. I was swimming with my friend and her brother and when we went home we all took showers. His parents weren\'t home and his sister left after she took a shower to go for a walk. I had just gotten out of the shower and i  only had a towel, under that i was naked. I was getting my clothes when he walked in and i told him that i was naked under the towel. But he didn\'t go away, he just stood there and mumbled something i didn\'t understand, so i acted like he wasn\'t there. I was reaching for my clothes and next thing i know, he has his arms around me and is pushing on the bed. He whispered to me \"do you want to have sex\" and i said yes. we had talked a lot about sex so i was eager to do it. He started kissing my lips then after a while he was licking my neck, sliding down to my chest. it felt gross and amazing at the same time. he had taken his shirt and pants off and so he was in his underwear and was trying to pull away the towel i had on. i kept holding on to it, but my fingers started to hurt so i just let him pull it off my body. he licked my body starting at my chest then between my breasts and down to my belly button. i pulled off his underwear and i whispered to him that i was ready so he injected his penis into my vagina and i was overwhelmed with this tingling sensation all over my body,. at first it hurt but then i felt super warm and was moaning and groaning and so was he. then he laid partly on top of me and he was holding my hand and we just staid like that for hours and it felt so comfortable that we both fell asleep there. i guess he woke up before me so when i opened my eyes he was gone and his clothes were gone and he had put the towel back on me so i got dressed and went down stairs and he was there watching t.v. with his sister who had just gotten back from her walk. but after that he never said anything to me and he just pretended i didn\'t exist. when we had sex was the best day of my life, but why i regretted it was because i was so young and he never talked to me again and i was so  madly in love with him. so i\'m telling you to wait until you are older and it won\'t last forever.  

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Alexis

ok so im 15 and my boyfriend is harrison, he\'s 16. we have been friends for ages, family friends mostly.
so in august this year my boyfriend and i broke up and i was devistated. harrison had always been there for me and a week later he invited me to his holiday house, with our families.. it was then that i really realised that i had major feelings for him...
we were in his room watching the sun set and listening to music. i said that i loved sunsets and i thought that they were beautiful, he agreed but added that i was more beautiful. that surprised me at first because we\'d always been just really good friends.
i looked at him and he quickly kissed me. it was passionate and gentle at the same time. we smiled at each other and then i said lets go slow.
we had talked about sex before, not meaning with each other though and we both thought that own virginity was special, so should be given to that special person.
we kind of kept our up-staged relationship a secret for a few days, we snuck out and he was trying to teach me how to play golf, but we ended up making out. it was weird at first because we\'d always told each other about our first kisses and all our crushes and everything, and now we were together. it felt so right though. i told him we\'d go slow, because we both agreed that if it didnt work that we woulld still want to be friends
so when we went back to the house our families wanted to go somewhere, we both looked at each other and smiled again, finaly thinking that we would have some time alone. so they went out, harri said he had h/w and i complained i had a backache.
almost as soon as they were gone, harrison was giving my a massage and i told him he was so sweet and silly that i didnt actually have a sore back. we flirted outrageously and then he told me that he loved me.
i jokingly said it was funny that id only been single little over 1week and we had been secretly \'going out\' for 3 or 4 days and already we thought we loved each other but iknew it was true, we looked into eachothers eyes and i whispered that i loved him too. we started making out, more passionately this time, and i could feel myself getting hot.
he slowly slid his hand under my shirt and tried to unclip my bra and i pulled of his shorts and made cirlces on is chest with my fingers. he said that he would be back,
and i saw him rumaging through his stuff, he returned with a condom and we took each others underwear off and he put the condom on. we started feeling each other and he slowly started to pull me closer and put himself inside of me. it hurt alittle and he was hessitant not to hurt me. i told him it was ok and again that i loved him, he said that he loved me too.

that was one of the best days of my life, we hadn\'t told anyone after those holidays annd didnt plan to until i started to feel sick a couple of days later. itold myself i couldnt be pregnent but he wanted to make sure. he broughtme a pregnency test from the chemist after school and he came over before my parents got home from work.

that was one of the worst days of my life. the test was positive, i came out of the bathroom in shock. he was pretty stunned and we were both terified. eventually he got himself together and told me that it was going to be ok. i argued with him (regretably) and shouted at him how can it be ok when im pregnent and we\'ll be having a baby and neither of us have jobs and our parents still thought that we were innocent virgins!!! he was upset and decided to go home.

i didnt go to school for the next couple of days and told mum i felt sick, he rand the 2nd day and we both appologised because we were in shock and werent expecting a baby because we had used a condom. he wanted me to come to school because he said that he missed me.
i went to school the next day to see him and at reccess we went to the bathrooms and sat and cried together, id never seen him cry that much and i realised that it was terrifying for him aswell.

a few weeks later, about 1 months after that faithful day i went to the toilet and realised i was bleeding, i was scared again and decided to finaly tell my mum.she was shocked and angry  but mostly worried i think, she said that i shouldn\'t be bleeding if i was pregnent. she took me immediately to the doctors, (i called harrison on the way and he wanted to meet us there but my mum told not to).

i felt glad and lucky in a way and like a murderer in another way...id had a misscarage.

SO the main piont to the story is that YOU CAN STILL GET PREGNENT EVEN IF YOU USE A CONDOM,
the whole experience was horrible, but it brought harrison and i close together, because hes such a great guy. i wouldnt have had sex with him in the first place if i knew that he wouldnt have been there for me

we are still together and agreed not to have sex agin untill we\'re atlest 18 and can handle a bay.

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Callee

Okay so when I was 14, and a freshman, I began to take notice in a senior, but it was just little crush, I didn\'t ever think anything would ever evolve. I met him through a friend and we were just like associates; then one day he came to my first period, he had a paper to type and with a broken computer, decided to type it out in my computer class. He of course sat next to me and there was the beginning of a very long story.

   For about two months he and I talked and hung out; I immediately began to fear pressure for sex; but he was very settle about it, almost as if he wasn\'t pressuring me at all.
We were essentially on and off dating for about a year and half or so.

    There were countless times we had the opportunity for sex but, I didn\'t ever let get that far. The most we got was \'Dry Sex\' (which is basically sex with your clothes). He didn\'t ever see me naked and the only shirt to come off was his. We would sleep together a lot (just sleep); that\'s basically all we did: Argue, Make-out and Sleep. Sometimes he\'d stay at my house but mostly his, he always feared getting caught and since I was underage, it would be disastrous for him; so we would mostly be at his house. I really don\'t know what are relationship could be categorized as.

I finally grew tired of not knowing; I ended whatever is it we had -not officially but, made it clear we were ONLY friends, not any type of benefits included. Of course that night I got locked out of my house around 1 A.M. As he was dropping me off; I really didn\'t have a choice but to stay the night at his house -unless I wanted to spend the night outside cuddled up with my dog.

We went back to his place and I was trying to keep my \'space\'. I stayed on his opposite end, till he lifted me over to his side (I know I could\'ve stopped it there but, I didn\'t; I guess I didn\'t want to). We began to cuddle and fall asleep. Somehow we ended holding hands. All my effort and work to move on from him was out the window.

I didn\'t have sex with him that night; and I am completely and 100% complacent with that fact.
I can honestly say that I do not regret that at all; he and I were just not meant to be, and his actions a few months after only proved me right and further satisfied me with my decision. I think he cared for me to an extent but not more than a friend; which is not what I wanted.
It\'s been about a year since I\'ve seen him (although he\'s tried); I\'ve put an end to him in my life and wish him luck and the best. -I didn\'t go into full detail of our relationship but he did use me and didn\'t treat me well.

I hope my story motivates others to follow in my footsteps: If it doesn\'t feel right then really do not do it, you\'ll be happy with your choice in the end and soon after the decision.
I am currently 17 and it did take some time to move on from him; I think of him here and there but not as much as I use to. Till this day I am more than content with my choice; and sorry to anyone who was anticipating some kind of sex story. Haha Maybe in a few years.
 

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Cassondra

Hi Im Cassondra and Im still a virgin

I have a boyfriend and we have been dating for almost 9 months.  We have come close to having sex but we knew that nither one of us is ready to have sex.  We both have to urge to have sex every once in awhile.  He knows that I want to have childern and everything bet he knows that school is more important to me than anything.  So ladies just what till you are ready to have sex so that you dont want to end up pregent.

Im waiting till after I get married and we have commited to each other and nither one of us believe in abortion   

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Elyse

  I had planned to lose my virginity sometime in college, when I was with someone that I loved, who loved me, and who I knew wouldn't just use me.  Although things didn't go exactly like I planned, and I ended up losing my virginity during my junior year of high school (at 17), I have no regrets.
    My boyfriend and I had talked about sex early in our relationship, and we had agreed that the smartest thing to do would be to wait.  We knew we weren't ready yet, and respected each other's opinions.  About 3 months into our relationship, we told each other that we loved them.  We had both know that we were in love, but we were afraid to tell the other, because we didn't want to get rejected.  After 4 months, we moved past just kissing.  We would make out whenever and wherever we got the chance, at the movie theater, whenever he managed to come over while I was home alone, etc.  He was content with making out and not going too far, but I started to want more.  
    I talked to him about it, and he told me that he still wasn't ready to have sex yet.  I told him that that was fine, I could wait for him, and I wouldn't pressure him.  We had done practically everything except have sex, and I accepted that he wasn't ready.  7 months into our relationship, I brought up the subject of sex again, still trying not to pressure him at all, and he told me that he wanted to have sex too.  
    We didn't immediately do it, but we spent about a month talking it over, making sure we were comfortable.  We talked about protection, about what we would do if both the condom and the birth control that I was taking failed, and we talked about what having sex might change in our relationship.  We agreed about everything, even what we would do if I got pregnant (give the child up for adoption, because we both are against abortion).
    8 months and 10 days into our relationship, we finally had the opportunity we had been waiting for, my parents were going away for the day, and I would be home alone.  He came over and at first we just cuddled and talked, then we started kissing, both of us slowly getting less embarrassed.  After a while both of our shirts were gone, and his pants were off, leaving him in basketball shorts over his boxers.  
    A couple minutes later, he removed my shorts while I took off my bra.  His hands were caressing me while he kissed and nibbled on my neck and shoulders, leaving little red marks here and there.  I pulled his basketball shorts off, and we paused for a second, looking into each others eyes. "Are you sure?" we both asked at the same time.  
    Knowing that he was feeling a little shy as well, made me feel better, less self conscious.  We kept going, until I told him that I wanted his boxers off.  He pulled them off, then told me to take off my underwear, while he put on the condom.  It took him a little while to put the condom on, which was re-assuring (it reminded me that we were BOTH virgins).
    He started to enter me, but I made some noise, and he stopped.  I told him to keep going, that it didn't hurt too much, so he went a little further, and I told him to stop, because it hurt more.  He paused and after a little while, I told him to keep going, only to tell him to stop again a few seconds later.  He pulled out, and told me that we didn't have to do it if it hurt too much.
    I told him that I wanted to try a different position, and had him lay down.  I positioned myself above him, and lowered onto him, but stopped when the pain got more intense.  He knew that it hurt, and gently told me that we should stop.  I got off of him, and layed down next to him.
    He sat up, then told me that I was bleeding a little, but not that much.  I told him that it shouldn't hurt as much now, and asked him to try again.  He did, and there was barely any pain, but it felt a little uncomfortable, and I asked him to just lay still once he was all the way in.  He did, letting me get used to him, then when I told him it was okay, he started to go in and out.
    Neither of us had an orgasm, but we were okay with that.  We cuddled for a while afterward, and I just listened to his heartbeat.  Then we got dressed and talked and cuddled some more, until he got picked up.  
    Our parents had no idea what happened, and have not found out yet.  In fact, neither of our parents know that we have had sex, and we aren't planning on telling them anytime soon.  We always use a condom, even though I'm on birth control, and we both know what the consequences could be if something goes wrong.
    I have no regrets about my first time, because I was completely sure that I loved him, and that he loved me.  We are still together, almost 1 year and 3 months, and our relationship has only gotten stronger.  We don't have sex all the time, in fact we only rarely do, because it is something special to us, not something to pass the time, or just for fun.  
    We talk about the future, and our relationship when we go to college, since we'll be going to different schools, and we both want to try to stay together.  But, even if we end up breaking-up, I still won't regret losing my virginity to him, and he will always have a piece of my heart and soul.  We both gave a piece of ourselves to each other on that day, and have treasured those pieces since then.  
    My advice to anyone who is considering losing their virginity: BE COMPLETELY POSITIVE THAT YOU LOVE THEM AND TRUST THEM, THAT THEY LOVE YOU, AND THAT BOTH OF YOU ARE READY FOR THE EMOTIONS AND VULNERABILITY THAT COMES WITH SEX.

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Kennedy Lee

    My name is Kennedy Lee, i just turned 18 and i have 1 little girl.
The first time i had sex was with the boy i am still with today, Kenneth. I love him with all my heart and soul.
    So, Kenneth and I where running around outside while it was dark and rainy, we where playin a very stupid game.(flashlight tag) We got tired and we whent inside. I was wet and cold to i whent to get in the shower(i had done this before) and i asked him if he had any clothes i could wear, he said "yeah, sure." So he brung me some of his basketball shorts(that were 2x to small 4 him) and a green shirt. He had put in a romance movie, we where layin' on his bed making-out, then we started talking about love, sex and whatever. Then, he asked me a question, he said "baby, do u love me?" i said "yes, of course i do. if i didnt i wouldn't be here with you now." He looked away and took of his shirt. He told me to sit up, he gave a massage. He slowly began rub my back and unhook my bra. I took off my shirt and he stared at my electric green and pink bra before sliding the straps off my sholders.
   He started to undress and i unhooked his belt, and unbuttoned his pants. I got up from the bed and cut the tv off. He was laying of top of me and before i knew what was going on we where having sex. Then after he says "did i hurt you?" i say "at first yes, but then the pain turned into pleasure." he said "if i didnt love you i eouldn't have done that." i say "yes, darling, i know you love me and you are positive i love you." He took me home and about 4 weeks i started getting the craps,moring sicknesses, and puckin every morning. I when to school the next day. I was at lunch and i broke into tears, i ran over to him crying my face was painted with running mascara. He asks "Whats wrong, Whos neck am i braking babe?" I said "your not going to have to hurt anyone." he says "then...then why are you crying?" i sniff, and wipe the tears from my cheeks and say "Kenneth, im....."
Kenneth stares at me, then a almost yells "Kennedy...your WHAT?!" i say "Kenneth, im pregnant!" i start to cry again. He just sits there arm around me in utterly shock.

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Sami

It was my senior year in high school and I was still a virgin. I was completely okay with this, and I even wanted to wait until marriage to have sex. My best friend's boyfriend was a freshman in college and invited some of our friends to visit him one night. It was me, his girlfriend, and our two other best friends.

I've drank alcohol a lot of times before this night, so I knew how much I could handle. The night was really fun. We met all of his friends and everyone was drinking so it was a really fun and chill environment.

He decided to take us to a frat house and we really wanted to go because we've never been to one before. It was really cool at first, but then I recognized a guy which I met earlier. We made eye contact and stepped aside from everyone else and onto the dance floor.

Things started getting heated; we started kissing and he fingered me on the dance floor. At first, I was really enjoying the attention. But then he blatantly asked me if I wanted to go have sex. Even though I always wanted to wait, I said yes because we were so caught up in the heat of the moment. We went upstairs searching for a room and only the bathroom was empty.

We went in and locked the door. We started making out again and he was fingering me. He sat me on the sink when we had all our clothes off and then we did it. We had sex. I was crying, partially because I was emotional due to the alcohol, but also because he was really rough and it hurt. He was nice about it and stopped when I asked him to.

When we started to put all our clothes back on to leave, we had to ask for each other's names.

I never pictured it like that, at all. It was awkward and uncomfortable. I only told my friends that were there because I cried the whole way back to where we were staying that night. They were really supportive and made me feel a lot better. The next few nights, I cried myself to sleep. My virginity was really important to me and I lost it because of a drunken one night stand.

On top of it all, I remembered later that night that he didn't use a condom. I was paranoid for the next couple of weeks that I had an STD and that I was going to be pregnant. Even though I'm on birth control, it was still possible to get pregnant. In the end, I had no STD and was not pregnant but it really worried me to no end.

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Chelsey

I'm a senior, I'm seventeen and I'm still a virgin. I guess part of me wonders what my problem is; you know, never having sex. I mean, I want to experience it - of course I do! I just feel that first time sex is a special thing and I want to wait until I'm completely in love with a person before I give myself to him. Don't get me wrong, I WANT to have sex. I want it pretty badly. But I'm willing to wait for that special person.

I used to get jealous of my friends sex stories. They'd tell me a little of what happened the night before and I could feel myself getting jealous. It isn't easy being the only virgin I know. A part of me knew that one certain friend, who shall remain nameless, liked to tell me everything her and her boyfriend did to bother me. It did bother me, at first, but then I realized something. She's not the fortunate one; I am. She's the one with the reputation of being an easy lay and a slut, not me. I would rather everyone know about my virginity than everyone know how many guys I've done.
In a way, I guess I'm lucky to still be a virgin. I've seen how sex ruins relationships and friendships alike, and I don't want that. I want to stay 'pure' until I find the boy I really love. Chances are I'll end up having sex with a guy I'm seeing and I'll get dumped, but if that's the experience I have in store then I'll welcome it. Because I know that it'll give me something to learn and I won't make the same mistake again.

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Sara

 Hi my name is Sara i'm16 years old an my story involes my second boyfriend an i.
 It was the 15th of march 2009 in form 4 when my boyfriend an i was hanging out in an empty classroom at lunch time. My girl friend was with me talking on the phone to her boyfriend. My boyfriend Shurvan an i sat talking for awile an we were talking about sex an if we would ever do it. I then felt scared so i told him to change the talk but before i said it i had turned my back, an that was the wrong thing to do. When i turned back to watch him he came towards me an we began kissing.
 Kissing was the only thing we used to do when we were alone. Then he started to touch my back in a sexy way, i became weak so weak that i found myself lie down on the desk. He took off my underwear an pulled me closer to him. He then laid me down again but this tim he was unziping his pants. My friend had her head on the desk an she had on her headset talking. She was too far to hear me.
 He came down on me an started to push his finger up my private part. He went from one finger to two to three. After that he started pushing his penis into me. I started to feel pain but what could i do?  I just laid there. After he stoped an left the class to go to the washroom. I also did the same. I reach in class befor him so i put back on my pants.
  I started to feel week so i had put my head on the desk but he came back an started to hug an kiss me. I watch him but the words that i wanted to say would not so all i said was that i wanted to be alone for awile. I sat in class all alone.
   I wanted to tell a teacher but i did not want my mum to find out. I kept track of my body changes. I still have noth told anyone.
   It's been almost five months now an i'm proud to saw that i'm ok an tha i broke up with Shurvan. He left school an is doin nothing with his life. I'm still in school an i'm in form five. On the 15th October 2009 during history class i sat by my frind whom i was real close to since form 4. I sat talking to him an i began to tell him my past. He was there for me an he loved me. We started talking to eachother every day. We became boyfriend an girlfriend. We hang out outside under the trees on in our class with the rest of our classmates. Today is the 9th of November 2009 an the young man who has made me forget my ex an keep my mind set on school is my boyfriend an angel an this young name is Shiva.
    Thanks to him i'm doing even better in my school work an i vowed not to have sex with anyone till i get married. Shiva an i vowed that together. My body shall not be touched. My happiness is back to normal an i owe it all to someone who was once my close friend an now is my boyfriend an in about four to five years he will become my husband.
    Pick your friends. I'm enjoyin life now an i will keep happy as long as i follow GOD an trust Shiva.


 "NO RING NO THING, NO WED NO BED, DON'T GRIND IF UH CAN'T MIND"

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Paige

ok so. uhm, i was 15. i was the girl who was supposed to wait till marraige. we started dating in november. and altho he had been a player and felt like he wud never fall in love, i changed that. he was 17. we actually spent 6 out 7 days together every week and when we werent face to face we were on the fone or online. i was pretty new to everything except kissing. he was my first for seeing me even half naked. we had gotten close.

i was his best friend and lover but he was so used to having sex with every girl he dated. and i wanted to stay a virgin. so in the end of december, 5 days before christmas, we broke up because i didnt want to have sex. we still talked every day and saw each other a few times a week, and we just kept growing more and more feelings. in january my dad went on a trip for a week and a half and it was also regents week. my mom used to work at night and didnt come home till around 9 in the morn. we were bored and as usual my brothers used to ignore me. so i sed hey, come over. we cud watch tv or something.

in about 30 min he was at my house, and he took my remote and sat on my bed, i tried reaching for it and of course i knew what he was doing. so i leaned in and he grabbed me and kissed me. we watched tv and kissed and touched. my pants came off but that was it and we dry rubbed, and you kno. then we decided to calm down. and we started talking around 12, and we talked and talked and just cuddled. we talked about his mom and how she died and listened to music. then i felt a tear drop on m face, and i just hugged him tight and we both cried, and we kissed and we told each other we loved each other and how we knew from the first time we met.. then he took off my underwear and we were just like rubbing bare, and then he like kept getting closer, and he was halfway in and asked if he shud keep going, and i stared him in his eyes and he did. and he stroked just a few times, and i got scared because it was my first time and we didnt use protection. we sat there and talked about what we would do if i got pregnant. then we took a shower together. altho alot of crazy stuff happened. we were deeply in love and i still love him as does he. but he is in the navy now so we cnt really be together.

our love was nothing ive ever experienced before, and we actually had to go thru alot but i dont regret anything. i dont regret anything i went thru after. because even when we tried to force the break up we jus kept coming back to each other. we never stopped loving each other. jus becareful who you give your most precious gift to. im 18 now. and we still talk as much as possible. mucho love.

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Unknown

Okay. Nothing special. Me and my buddy were watching a movie, making out and he asked me if I wanted to do it. I said yes, so I took the box of condoms from my dresser and I slid it onto his penis (so hard-feeling) and lubed it, the he grabbed my waist and slid it in and I cried until he took his out and apologized. This time I put it in and it felt awesome. He was going faster and faster...

Not so great, 3 months later. I got knocked up and my parents are gonna kill me when they find out. It was good at the time... but wait until you're commited, ladies and gentlemen.

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